Manhood is written

If you did not know then you should know now that the way a person becomes self-confident, gain strength, and success, is by living through times and daily experience. Paul D new that oppression is as real as its oppressor because he was a victim of slavery. Furthermore, manhood can live strong but can also be violated, shaped and ruined by genuine evil. “We are controlled by our confusion far more than we are aware." (James Baldwin) It is certain that slavery is an experience that has multiple destructive side effects that can solidify a person’s Manhood and their life. The idea of the notion to enslave people was created by those who have been mentally corrupted and misguided by the power of supremacy, evil, time, and most of all greed. Looking back in time, “Some of the most devastating conditions that the poor face today are legacies of the Reagan era. Reagan slashed the budgets for so-called entitlement programs such as Medicaid, food stamps, the Environmental Protection Agency, Community Development Block Grants, and federal education programs by 60 percent. He froze the minimum wage at 3.35 an hour and cut public housing and Section 8” The Rich and the Rest of Us (63). That is a prime example of higher power moves made while introducing the “advanced oppression using punitive acts on the people living in poverty,” by Ronald Reagans red hands.  That was U.S evil power trip that benefited the rich and demonized the lives of poor Americans. There is no question why American citizens today have less power than we should. And we the people are being like cattle. We have to avoid being raised to be eaten up by society and its future plans. It is immoral to have another person’s freedom; moreover slavery is as real as a slave master and trauma..

 Sometimes people have to fight to gain freedom or respect, which will eventually form order in their man hood that birth from psychosocial development. Paul D was using the strength of a man who has been violated and abused but not yet spiritually broken. With his man hood in affect he had fired back at “Beloved” out of her flesh “Leave the place alone! Get the hell out!” A table rushed toward him and he grabbed its leg. Somehow he managed to stand at an angle and, holding the table by two legs, he bashed it about, wrecking everything, screaming back at the screaming house. “You want to fight, come on!” (22) Being strong, brave, and knowledgeable are key factors of one who has control over their man or womanhood. “Manhood is the state of being human or manly (Webster dictionary)

 Responsibility, trials and tribulations, are the things that would govern the limitations of one’s capability or well-being. Paul D wanted to protect his new family so he fought the only way he knew how. Though everyone has a breaking point, which is the moment when all negative pressure becomes uncontrollable. A soul can be broken and lost and sometimes one would have to seek for answers like “tell me something, stamp. “Paul D’s eyes were rheumy. “Tell me this one thing. How much is a nigger supposed to take? Tell me. How much? ” “All he can,” said Stamp Paid. “All he can.” “Why? Why? Why? Why? Why?” A sane man can crack but it is up to us not to brake. Search long and hard for answers to the problems that matter in order to revers confusion. If you did not know, then you should know now “As the number of Blacks in “Frying Pan Park” swells, it adds to the empirical data that attempts to argue that racism no longer exists, even though you know it does.” Obviously is alive, being that the ratio of our past presidents is 43 whites to one black today. Post black, Toure (117) Connecting to the caseloads living with the after effects of being descendants of enslaved victims. Organized hatred is crucial and extremely hindering the roots of black culture, spirits, and human growth. It is amazing how the turkey analysis is aligned with today’s time. Just because we have some rich and wealthy African Americans does not mean that in today’s time is not corrupted by the same type of evil.

Wickedness is true and it is combined with slavery connecting back to slavery’s era of black brutality at operation sweet home. The name Sweet Home is the biggest oxymoron of all, because it was nothing sweet about it. It is the Dragons who ran the slave trade for profit, that we forget about and they are still active and at large healthy and alive.  Paul D was a strong man who had a love-hate relationship with the “ghost of slavery” Beloved, because “he wanted her out, but set had let her in and he couldn’t put her out of a house that wasn’t his. It was one thing to beat up a ghost, quiet another to throw a helpless coloredgirl out in territory in the affected by the Klan. Desperately thirsty for black blood, without which it could not live the dragon swam the Ohio at will.” (79) Some type of love was there accompanying manhood. His actions spoke as the Head of the household and black protector. He wanted her out but his conscience would not let his heart be voided. He was his own best thing at that particular moment because if he would have made her leave and she died by the evil he had knowledge of, his conscious would have eight him dead. It is time for people to start to live so that they can live longer while we have more privilege. Whereas ciphering slavery, “it was school teacher who taught them otherwise. A truth that waved like a scarecrow in Rye: they were only sweet home and at sweet home. One step off that ground and they were trespassers among the human race. Watchdogs without teeth; steer bulls without horns; gelded workhorses whose neigh and whinny could not be translated into a language responsible humans spoke. His strength had lain in knowing that schoolteacher was wrong.” (Beloved) Common sense comes naturally as well as karma comes in due season. Living in knowing that “they are more of us they drowned then there is all of them ever lived from the start of time.”(287)

Owning yourself and claiming man hood is being aware of “current” events and being able to raise questions as well as embracing self-opinions for change are all part of expressing ones strength. Taking control and counter acting trauma is vital in one’s quests for liberation. “This probably sounds like therapy speak,” said Wahneema Lubiano, “and I probably have spent too many years in therapy, but there’s a moment when you’re hinting for the 50^th fucking time about some trauma and you suddenly realize that you’re really not venting anymore, you’re just telling the story as it happened.” You’re no longer tearing up every time you think about it. You’re no longer shutting yourself for what’s happened to you. You just saying yes, so then this thing happen, and you hear it in your voice. You’re really bored with the trauma. So for me watch and Chappelle I thought, “is what it looks like when you are no longer caught up by your own trauma about racism and the history of black people in the United States.’ Then everything is up for grabs as a possibility of art and performance art. Because you are not wearing the trauma anymore, you get to use something that produced all that, and do something else with it.” Post blackness (60) it’s time to use the trauma created by slavery as fuel for the fire that burns for S.O.S.

Surely, life is full of evil and unjustified criminal actions and on the flipside Love is also alive and healthy waiting to be used by caring people. Love can be used to kill the ideas of evil. The same evil that test other people’s man hood exist because it was not taught the nature of loyal human etiquette. Leadership is needed along with parental guidance and love. “A man ain’t nothing but a man,” said Baby Suggs. “But a son? Well now, that’s somebody.”(beloved) It will be hard to become a man without a man providing manly information and confirmation to manhood especially when there is a nation of people against you being human. The men without skin is without it for a reason “It makes sense for lots of reasons because in all of Baby’s life as well as Sethe’s own, men and women were moved around like checkers. Anybody Baby Suggs Knew, let alone love, who had run off or been hanged got rented out, loaned out, bought up, brought back, stored up, mortgage, won, stolen or seized.” African-Americans were moved around for a reason and that reason was to disrupt the improvement of their cognitive abilities.man hood was naturally in Paul D  But “if you didn't know you should know now how” to outsmart oppression with the power of knowledge utilizing manhood. The fire in you have should never go out, for justice and love awaits, and remember even after death our souls are alive enough to be loved.

“The Raise of Reparation for the Victims of Forgotten Crime”

A Dark Revisit of the Cold and twisted History of Slavery

The rebirth of sanctity is past due after a mental and physical chain of nasty events. Beloved, by Toni Morrison, explains a series of national, historic, slavery enriched, real-life moments. The notion of slavery was not too long ago. This saga reveals multiple lives abuse while being enslaved and how moments in time can either live to haunt you or die without an apology then forgotten by future generations. If a person never knew about their past they will never know where they came from. Details of slavery and oppression should be analyzed and revisited for safety precautions “It was not a story to pass on” (324). This novel helped raised important questions about maintaining efficacy of African-Americans past future justice. The reason why it is not a story to pass on is because if you were to try and tell this tale specifically, it will be told incorrectly due to the fact of its mystic complexity. The world has fixed the minds of today’s society to forget our evil past. “Everyone knew what she was called, but nobody anywhere knew her name.” (323)

Although Morrison may have been writing about the murdered third child of the character by the name Sethe, she was subliminally calling upon the readers to remember and research the past of African American slaves in general. The call of community duty applies. My collective if unconscious started to raise valid demands about how much justice is owed to my race. Flashbacks of films and powerful black leaders being assassinated streamed my mind while soft whispers of my conscience said to me “Jim Crow’s ideas and oppression is still alive and working to annihilate true black activism.” Black love is constantly fading away in today’s time our younger generation knows nothing about slavery, yet they are products of the after affects. “So they forgot her like an unpleasant dream during troubling sleep.” (324)

 If you don’t know anything about the harsh and heartless type of slave owners without skin of the past, then you would not know how to be prepared or deal with those of today or the future. The knowledge of greedy without mercy or integrity will be lost; therefore you would not be cautious of any of its organized attacks. “By and by all trace is gone, and what is forgotten is not only the footprints but the water to and what is down there.”(324) Obviously, what is down there is the names of actual victims unknown without justice given to them or the care and notion to “be loved” enough for someone to take the risk to fight for their faces like Beloved tried to do for herself. To be love is to be remembered, but when the heat is on sometimes like “the spring ice thawing to quickly” unexpectedly, things can get out of control, bloody. The notion of blacks asking for justice to be served, people to be arrested, and the worldwide apology to be given with reparation that will count is vital.

3 acres and a mule is not enough payment for the pain and suffering of our forgotten abused ancestors. Restitution is long past due for the blood sweat and tears shed in order to build the United States of America. That is the loneliness that roams. “No rocking can hold it down. It is alive, on its own. A dry and spreading thing that makes the sound of one’s own feet going seems to come from a far off place.” (323) Understanding now how this book was written to inspire us to never let time change without knowing true history and what had happened in detail; will allow you to bring justice for the ones who died a victim of a crime. If you don’t have knowledge of what happened in times before, you may find yourself assisting evil as it repeats itself. The clueless never knows what is to come. Sometimes a victim can forgive, but they should never forget any wrongdoings. Karma is as real as the universe and is connected to the spirit of mistreated people that never dies.

Sometimes we the people have to revisit the sour and unpleasant past and lose the appetite for the present even if it is sweet and tastier. Don’t be uninquisitive especially when you have a sample of the abnormal and cruel. Demand the world to explain things you question, or you may find yourself being an accomplice to our oppressors. It is sad that people can be so evil that “a pretty little slave girl recognized a hat, and split to the woodshed to kill her children.” (186) revelations of hell on earth haunted my thoughts multiple times reading the living chapters of this book.

Beloved was murdered and died violently without justice and that is why she returned for restitution and revenge. If African-Americans of today was to try to retrieve compensation for the free labor and the abundance of offenses; it would be a long tough fight. Evil that existed in the beginning of time is still alive and strong enough to prove good to be old and irrelevant. But we have to claim our self-worth, “freeing yourself was one thing; claiming ownership of that freed self was another.” (111-112) moreover, that is after justice for all victims, of the past and present, did or alive yet forgotten and unloved become valid in due season.

“Truth is life written out in complete detail.”

The will of change is visible and distinguished by the persons in need of it.

page 316 stated “in five tries he had not had one permanent success. Everyone escapes (from sweet home, from Brandywine, from Alfred, Georgia, from Washington, from Northpoint) had been frustrated.” The will of change was made visible by Paul D written in this passage by (Toni Morrison).

I can see who have the power to live and thrive and who has a broken soul throughout my studies.

page 320 Sethe explains “I’m tired, Paul D. So tired. I have to rest a while.” Now he knows what he is reminded of and he shouts at her, don’t you die on me! This is baby Suggs bed! Is that what you planning?”

“A expired heart is visual and in need for explanation in order to be repaired.”

Paul D felt the release of the spell from beloved and restored his manhood accordingly.

“Bad memories attack the mind as the president pushes rewind at times throughout the book.”

While Sethe is growing week beloved is growing strong

The pregnant woman on the porch was Sethe’s soul in transition to her family rebirth and alteration. This was a story to pass on, but not initially. Hard times never be forgotten but learned from…Pain could never be forgotten if the soul never dies (paranormal)

Concrete love for a child is beloved by its mother.

A good life is granted and grateful to one whom had the known opposite.

Denver was in need of change, as she stepped off the edge of the world for assistance. I learned that womanhood is colorful and passed down by the flesh, so I believe that the spirit of the hostile ghost of the third child Beloved had come up out of the blue water to receive the strength of a woman that she felt owed her a face, womanhood and a soul deliverance type of an apology.

Liberation is something urged by the mistreated thinker.

Leo Evans

Mr. Tom de Wit

10/30/13

Daraja/ Emoja Conference

Respect is everything…

While love proves to be its spark

Think love before you act to annihilate disrespect

Construct your present time to create a map for our beautiful future

Each one shall teach one to be bold and scholarly

Retain the good out of every teacher or mentor

Refuse to succumb to negatives

To be able to live a long abundant life is the result of a person who is humble, strong, and disciplined

Let’s reform our culture and base the structure on unconditional love and community connection

Respect is everything…

Love shall be the spark to everything we do

Be militant in this battle in the change of our current society’s reality

We have to change the notion of “every man or women for them self” and grow more united creating more resources, which will allow us all to take part in the counter action of today’s evolution of poverty

Let’s be active and create clear pathways for success using knowledge as our main weapon till victory.

"Human is Human" (part 6)

“Human is Human”

Human is Human, “if a person cannot see similarities within every race they are ill.”

Morrison states: "There is a notion out in the land that there are black people or Indians or some other marginal group, and if you write about the world from that point of view, somehow it is considered lesser." Rejecting anything other than full membership in humanity for black people, she asserts her credo: "We are people, not aliens. We live, we love, and we die."

Through all of the memories pity was something strong slaves did not want. Pages 224 and 225 explain the power trip of white men in the 1800s. Sixo got caught stealing meat and got beat by his master after being verbally abused and psychologically tortured. Temptation is not new, it has existed before the creation of mankind, the earth, and before the assembly of time.

Part two of the extreme literature by Toni Morrison page 246 and 247 explains how people look down on babysitting because of her children being conceived by colored men. Those twisted slave owners look down on her, but Morrison stated on page 247 that “she slaves not to have pleasurable feelings on their own; the bodies not supposed to be like that, but they have to have as many children as they can to please whoever owned them.”

(white men) it is funny how a person can call someone an animal, not human, and a slave, but then have sexual intercourse with whom you believe be is an unequal. Ancient is the time of slavery the days were time was told by the sky’s and the cock’s crow. She holds the tree on her back every whip connecting slavery history together as a family tree. Ohio was not the place to be.

Beloved is she beloved is he who holds the key to sethe heart and mind that think pass the pain of the baby calls. The handprints and evil that scared her brothers away the questions were raised by notorious memory tattooed on the soul without salvation.

The force of love and hate lived compelling, yet apprehensive to comprehend until you are magically drifted into the world behind the text.

I never read such a dreamlike story of pure love, and absolute opposite intertwined with a twisted dark side of horror and mental haunting. This books challenge my ability to expand my writing techniques… Shot out to Mr. de Wit’s English 4 class of 2013.

 Much love
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"Royal Strengths" (Part 5)

“Powerful, resilient, and black”

This is a poem that was based on the royal strength in the book beloved by (Toni is Morrison) winner of the Noble peace prize.

The days of humanity washed away by men

Woman the blame of this corrupted intelligence biblically written

The rivers small compared to the oceans, but they are connected one way or another

likewise is human powerful, resilient, and divers…

If a man and woman was said to be the start of the world and names, then “I can say that we are all connected.”

If Noah really built an ark, then I can assume that we are all connected.

I thank my teacher for allowing my mind to run free as it can be

Adding no restrictions to the wording I project

I thank you.

They say things happen for a reason now I see more than I have been shown before.

Paul D is me powerful, resilient, and black…

Life is connected to what you experience and relate to

Pain itself

Fixing dinner whereas making dinner is the way of the unstable

Nonexistent gratitude and earned appreciation unknown by the majority, white supremacy created a repeating rigorous surplus of hopelessness that sprinted through the minds of the helpless victims.

Sethe, Denver, beloved, and Baby Suggs etc. all  had super woman powers emerged from the slaves who survived that awfully dreadful quest from Africa to America 

Agony is an easy description of that criminal voyage, the survivors were strong enough to make it

In a sense we are those who have emerge with the power from the survivors of the most deadliest, most toxic-unsanitary trip of all times

The bond within that bondage of time our ancestors had had had to be broken by our devilish oppressors
Surviving whether stronger than page 151 and the cause of it was beloved’s scrutiny for sethe.

My grandfather Lee Ashley once told me that “the white man used to tell their darters that African-American males had tails like reptiles and animals.” The way he treated women at restaurants led me to believe that he was once a womanizer. My grandpa stated with a crooked bright smile, that “all of the white women in his town believe it until they found out that our tales are in the front.” We laughed a laughter fit for two black Giants.

I can tell that my grandpa something like Paul D, he may hard times seem durable.

Powerful, resilient, and black as to start of life.
 I thank my teacher for allowing my mind to run free as it can be

Adding no restrictions to the wording I project

I thank you.

"Slaved Endeavors" (part 4)

 Slaved Endeavors 

Paul D was a good hearted X slave, who has lived his entire life on his feet. “Numbness for a heart is he who bared witness to slavery and suffering.” Usually, if a person has been through the misery of slave like Paul D, the outcome and behavior of that person is typically unstable, cold hearted, and grimy.

She Paul D was the complete opposite. Paul D had life over death; Paul had the strength of a worldly God. Paul D could have been the opposite of himself being cheerful, sensitive, and charismatic. Paul D sensed the inborn energy beloved illuminated towards him, yet he ignored the magnitude of evil. Beloved strengths began to become greater than the words and suggestions from the (man of the house on 124 Bluestone Road.

In The seduction of Paul D by beloved was shocking yet the death of a African Americans was a norm, so for a man in those days to have multiple partners of color were almost necessary. That belief of inequality and power control was alarming.

 The methods of captivity have evolved like everything else on this planet. As I read the blood spewed on paper in the book beloved, my conscience chanted in stereo like audio paned left and right “The Identity of a man or woman is buried deeper than the heart being the sole and history of ones spirt.” This quote originated supernaturally to me while reading pages 13-14. The tree on Seth back weakened the strong suit of Paul D’s restricted manhood.

Paul D is the symbol of a striving black man, stripped from his ancestor’s culture and traditions. In south-central California 2012 a neighbor on the cross streets of 23^rd street and central Avenue had said to me the most powerful statement I’ve ever heard in my 33 years of living. She stated “black people need each other and we are brainwashed to believe the notion (of every man for himself).”

That anger and deceit by the beloved was difficult force made of pure negative history of enslavement that continued to nurture the life of the ghost turned flesh.(Dearly beloved…) Paul D dislike the fact of the sure (Redrum) on Sethe’s hands but destiny return.

 Love is strong… looks are not who you are… The love that Paul D grew for Sethe was unconditioned, considering he had no physical attraction for her after eight years of separation. I felt that their pass struggles were somehow connected to the love and the bond that they endured for one another. (Slaved Endeavors) to be contenued...